Day 292

30 weeks today!

We meet with the birthparents tomorrow. I am super nervous, anxious, excited, etc. What if they don't like us? What if they want more contact than I'm comfortable with? What if...? What if...? What if....? Ugh, so many questions.

I keep reminding myself that this is the path God has called us to walk and it takes a lot of trust. I'm so thankful for the friends and family that have been by our sides, who have not only helped Dan and I through this time, but have also given me grace in dealing with my scatter-brained-ness and my one-track baby mind.

I know many of you are curious what we ended up picking as the 'traditional' birthparent gift. I did not really know what I would be getting until I found it. I picked out a photo album and in that album I'm going to write something about the relationship they will have with us and the assurance and promise of pictures of their baby (birthparents dictate whether or not they would like pictures sent to them and I have no problem doing that. They are giving us the best gift ever, so sending them pictures is not a problem). Along with that I also got them a gift card to a restaurant for a 'night out.' I figured they could probably use one with all the stress that they are under.

Tonight I need to work on my letter...Tomorrow is the big meeting day. Please, please, please pray for us. Pray that this meeting goes EXCEPTIONALLY well. Pray that I am not so nervous (when I meet new people I tend to clam up and get really shy, sometimes giving off airs of snobbishness...I sooooo don't want them to think that!!). Pray that I may get an ultrasound picture (this seems like a small thing, but...yeah). Pray also that the contact situation that is dictated will be comfortable for everyone involved; Dan and myself, the birthparents, and the birth grandparents.

Thank you all!