Day 294

I know all of you have been anxious to hear about how the meeting our birthparents went. We've still been trying to process the fact that someone is willing to give us the most wonderful gift that I haven't gotten around to updating the blog. Sorry.

I was ridiculously nervous all day. Around 12:30 I started shaking and had so many butterflies that I couldn't really eat anything. Ugh, it was the worst feeling. I'm pretty sure I have never been that nervous in my entire life. As we were waiting to meet them their case worker popped in and said, "I hope you guys are talkative because these kids are so nervous." I looked at Dan and laughed...It is a good thing Dan wasn't as nervous as I was because he was going to have to be the one to do all the talking.

When we walked in I gave them both a big hug. Oh dear, they looked so young! I wanted to wrap my arms around them and tell them everything would be okay...but, unfortunately, I was so nervous that I wasn't able to say what was on my heart. Plus, it was a little awkward because we had two case workers in there (basically they were just watching us because they try not to interfere.) and since I am initially quiet AND our birthmother is shy, it was just a little hard to get a conversation going.

I really wanted to know why they picked us. Apparently, before they even had a meeting at Bethany, they were looking through family profiles online and saw ours. Something "clicked" and they wanted us. After meeting with their case worker a couple times they found out that we were still available and, before they had even left Bethany, had decided that we were the ones....before Dan and I even knew it!!! They said that we were a lot like them...so I guess that means that they are pretty awesome! ;)

They THINK they are having a boy...we don't know conclusively though. No matter what, we will be happy.

To be honest, right now, our love and respect for them is just growing. I was talking to Dan today and I mentioned that I feel so much love for them and all I want to do is protect them. We exchanged phone numbers and it was all Dan and I could do to not call them and talk to them tonight. We don't want to scare them away with our excitement.

So, all in all, the meeting went really well. We are so happy that we have been chosen by these wonderful people. I can't wait to meet my son or daughter, but I also can't wait to get to know the ones who are giving that gift to us.

I want to thank all of those who spent their day praying for us and for those who tried to calm me down. My poor co-workers, I really wasn't any good to anyone. Good thing they love me!!! :)