Thank you!

Lets be honest...not being a mom has been difficult for me these last few weeks...perhaps because we just had Mother's Day. I don't know. As Dan and I struggle to discern God's will, we want to thank those of you who have been so encouraging. Please know that your messages, emails, notes, and hugs have touched me so much. Thank you.

I especially want to thank one person in particular. This past week I was struggling with whether or not we were really supposed to go forward with adoption. Were Dan and I really called to adopt? I prayed Wednesday morning that God would give me a sign that we were on the right path, that we were supposed to adopt.

That afternoon I checked my mailbox. Inside was a note from a relative with a check enclosed for "Baby Van." I started balling before I even reached our front door (I'm sure my neighbors thought I was completely crazy). I cannot even begin to tell you how thankful I was for that sign...and for that couple who thought of us. Please know that God used you!

That night Dan and I had a long talk/cry about the adoption. Basically, we know we are called to adopt, there is no longer any doubt in our minds. However, we are no longer sure if we are going to do international or domestic. This is a huge decision and we want to make the right one. We talked with Bethany this week about how "open" open adoptions are and what they said really eased my fears. If that is the route we go with I will tell you more about it later.

So...as Dan and I look to discern God's will, please pray for us. It may seem like we are being 'flighty' by going back and forth with this...but we are just trying to work out what God's will is...not what we want. :)

On a lighter note, Dan's sister had her baby last week. I wished we lived closer so that we could see him. His name is Robert Charles Folkestad and he is beautiful.

Congratulations Amy and Andy! He is just too cute!!!